Bab 1 - The Secret

           

          Cuaca ni kadang panas. Kadang suam. Kadang pulak sejuk, dan ada juga pada suatu ketika cuaca itu nyaman. Kadang kadang tu pulak, tengah panas dia jadi sejuk. Namun hakikatnya cuaca sahaja yang berubah mengikut keadaan. Manusia tetap dengan kehidupan mereka sendiri. Melaksanakan tanggungjawab rutin harian mereka sebagai manusia di muka bumi. Setengah manusia asyik dengan dunia bagaikan dunia ini untuk selamanya. Mereka ketawa, mereka menangis. Mereka sayangkan dunia! Namun tidak untuk aku. Bagi aku dunia hanya membawa bencana. Langsung tidak membawa kebahagiaan. Kebahagiaan yang dikecapi dulu hanya untuk sementara. Untuk apa berjumpa dan bahagia sedangkan nantinya akan berpisah juga?? Lihat lah dunia kini. Lihatlah sendiri seramai mana manusia yang telah dirogol, di bunuh dengan kejam. Dunia tidak akan sunyi dari kekejaman manusia. Selagi ada manusia di bumi, selagi itulah kekejaman tidak akan berhenti dengan sendirinya…..

Aku bukan seperti cuaca yang kejap panas kejap sejuk. Aku adalah aku. Aku tak akan goyah. Sekali pun tidak. Aku akan cuba sedaya upaya mencari keadilan. Hanya ini yang aku mampu buat untuk dia. Hanya ini.

“Jangan patah semangat.. saya tahu awak kuat..”

Kata-kata yang selalu aku dengar. Yang sering membuatkan aku tersenyum kala aku menangis. Aku rindukan dia. Selagi aku bernafas. Aku akan cari dan bawa keadilan untuknya. Ini janji aku. Janji seorang Adnin Nadia….

Taipan tangannya terhenti disitu. Dijeling jam ‘Mickey Mouse’ berwarna pink di dinding. 10.30 a.m. Dia mengeluh lemah. Dia menutup komputer ribanya di sisi lalu dia bangun dari katil menuju ke locker untuk menyimpan komputer riba kecilnya. Leka menulis sehingga terlupa janji antara dia dan sahabat-sahabatnya untuk berjumpa pagi itu untuk makan tengah hari bersama-sama. Sahabat yang telah genap 10 tahun mereka bersama. Sejak dibangku sekolah rendah sehiggalah akhirnya mereka berjaya melanjutkan pelajaran di sebuah unversiti tempatan bersama-sama.

                Adnin Nadia melangkah lemah menuruni anak tangga. Sebelum keluar dari bilik dia sempat meninggalkan sehelai nota kecil buat kakak seniornya, takut nanti dia risau tidak menentu. Kakak seniornya itu memang agak ‘protective’. Kadang-kadang rimas juga dibuatnya. Segala perkara harus dilaporkan pada kakak itu. UIA ini bahaya katanya. Bagi Adnin Nadia kalau nak dibandingkan UIA yang hanya bahaya dengan foreigner student, dunia di luar sana lebih merbahaya. Yang kita tak dapat nak jangka perwatakan manusianya. Manusia dan dunia sangat menyeramkan. Dunia kejam kerana manusia di dalamnya. Baik manusia baiklah dunia. Dan pada fikiran Adnin Nadia kalau sesuatu perkara itu mahu terjadi, dia tetap akan terjadi walau sejauh mana kita lari darinya. Kerana ia adalah takdir dari Tuhan. Kita tak dapat nak elak.

                Bas lambat lagi nak sampai ni. Getus Adnin Nadia. Dia mengeluh. Dia memandang sepi alam sekeliling di hadapannya. Dia menghirup udara pagi dan nyaman itu. Namun air matanya tiba-tiba bergenang. Adnin Nadia terduduk lesu. Hatinya perit mengenangkan si dia. Dia menepuk-nepuk perlahan dadanya. Berharap agar sakit di dalam dapat menghilang dengan segera. Dia menyeka air matanya yang mula menitis laju. Saya akan beri keadilan untuk awak. Tekad Adnin Nadia.

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            Suasana di Restoran Kasih Indah Suci agak lengang hari ini. Biasanya waktu-waktu begini orang ramai sudah mula mengasak masuk. Sehinggakan kadang-kadang ada pelanggan yang terpaksa pulang tanpa sempat masuk ke restoran kerana melihatkan keadaan restoran itu yang penuh dan sesak. Restoran Kasih Indah Suci atau lebih dikenali dengan panggilan KIS itu memang terkenal dengan keenakan masakan melayu kampung mereka. Masakannya simple sahaja namun itulah yang menjadi kesukaan orang Melayu. Bangsa lain pun apa kurangnya, ramai juga yang kelihatan datang menjamu masakan Melayu. Masakan Asam Pedas Ikan Patin lah yang selalu menjadi pilihan pelanggan. Memang tak dapat nak dinafikan keenakannya. Sementelah itulah menu utama restoran KIS. Dan itulah juga tempat kegemaran 5 sahabat itu untuk meluangkan masa bersama. Mereka bercerita, mereka ketawa, segalanya bersama.

“Cuba kau call dia.. Kenapa lambat sangat ni…” soal Ainah Shipah. Sudah dekat setengah jam dia menunggu Adnin Nadia. Namun masih dia tidak kelihatan kelibat gadis itu.

“Sabar lah Enah. Kejap lagi sampai lah tu..” Nur Sakinah cuba menenangkan. Dia duduk di kerusi berhadapan dengan Mutiara Hanani. Dia membuat isyarat. Mutiara Hanani mengangguk lalu mengeluarkan telefon bimbit Samsung S-3 nya. Cuba mendail nombor Adnin Nadia.

“Tak dapatlah..” ujar Mutiara Hanani. Tidak lama kemudian satu mesej masuk. Laju Mutiara Hanani membuka mesej tersebut dan membacanya. Mungkin Adnin Nadia. Wajahnya berkerut membaca mesej tersebut. Nur Sakinah perasan perubahan raut wajah Mutiara Hanani.

“Kenapa?” Soal Nur Sakinah. Wajahnya risau. Ainah Shipah datang mendekati Mutiara Hanani. Begitu juga Fara Myra yang sejak dari tadi berdiri bersimpul tangan di tepi meja.

“Celcom bagi mesej, dia kata Ara takde kredit..” ujar Mutiara Hanani. Dia tersengih-sengih memandang rakan-rakannya yang sudah menjeling tajam ke arahnya sambil membuat bunyi tidak puas hati.

“Ee, mengada betul budak ni.” Marah Fara Myra sambil menampar lembut pipi Mutiara Hanani. Dia tergelak kecil. Lucu melihat kerisauan rakan-rakannya. Ainah Shipah hanya terduduk diam di kerusi. Dahinya berkerut. Risau dia sebenarnya mengenangkan Adnin Nadia yang tidak sampai lagi. Dia melihat sekitar restoran. Mungkin Adnin Nadia sudah sampai. Dia mengeluh.

“Phone je mahal, tapi takde kredit.” Kata Nur Sakinah sambil tersenyum mengejek. Mutiara Hanani mencebik. Dia menayang-nayangkan telefon bimbit mahalnya sambil menjelirkan lidah. Fara Myra hanya gelak melihat kerenah rakan-rakannya. Malas dia mahu campur. Nur Sakinah tersenyum sinis. Dia mencapai beg tangan berwarna pinknya di atas meja. Perlahan-lahan tangannya mengeluarkan sesuatu.

“Tada!!” Jerit Nur Sakinah ceria. Dia ketawa. Mutiara Hanani membeliak mata. Tidak percaya. Kali ini giliran Nur Sakinah pula menjelirkan lidah mengejek Mutiara Hanani. Fara Myra laju mendapatkan Nur Sakinah dan duduk di sebelahnya.

“Daebak! Bila kau beli ni Kinah??” Soal Fara Myra sambil membelek-belek Iphone 5 milik Nur Sakinah. Nur Sakinah tersenyum bangga sambil bersimpul tangan. Dia mengangkat kening kepada Mutiara Hanani. Diam-diam Mutiara Hanani menyimpan telefon bimbit Samsung S-3nya di dalam beg tangannya. Namun perbuatannya dapat ditangkap oleh empat mata Nur Sakinah. Dia gelak.

“Tak yah la gelak-gelak,” Wajah Mutiara Hanani kian suram melihat Fara Myra yang sedang asyik membelek Iphone5 Nur Sakinah.

“Ada phone mahal tu, kenapa tak kau je yang call? Saje je kan suruh aku yang call, nak memperlekehkan aku lah tu..” Ujar Mutiara Hanani sebak. Nur Sakinah tersenyum meleret. Sengaja dia mahu menyakat Mutiara Hanani kerana dia sering menunjuk-nunjuk Samsung S-3nya itu.

“Alahai kau ni, Iphone 5 dengan S-3 takde beza pun lah. Tak yah nak sedih sangat. Keluarkanlah balik S-3 kesayangan kau tu..” Nur Sakinah tergelak usai menghabiskan kata. Ainah Shipah yang dari tadi hanya senyap bangun dari tempat duduknya secara tiba-tiba. Nur Sakinah, Mutiara Hanani dan Fara Myra serentak memandang Ainah Shipah.

“Assalamualaikum..” Adnin Nadia memberi salam. Tanpa menunggu salamnya dijawab dia mengambil tempat duduk di sebelah Fara Myra.

“Waalaikumussalam..” Mereka menjawab salam Adnin Nadia perlahan. Suasana menjadi dingin.

“Kenapa kau lambat? Tahu tak Enah risau gila kat kau..” Fara Myra memberitahu. Cuba untuk menghilangkan sedikit keganjilan suasana saat itu. Dia pelik. Kenapa perhubungan mereka menjadi begini secara tiba-tiba. Dia rindukan saat mereka bergelak ketawa dulu. Sebelum kehadiran orang itu. Fara Myra mendengus perlahan apabila teringatkan wajah itu. Wajah yang telah menyebabkan ikatan persahabatan antara mereka 5 sahabat menjadi renggang. Nur Sakinah memandang Adnin Nadia yang hanya diam membatu tunduk sedikit memandang meja. Seperti memikirkan sesuatu. Nur Sakinah mengeluh. Dia tahu hubungan mereka sudah tidak seperti dulu. Dia sedar itu. Kerana itulah dia beriya mengajak semua sahabatnya berkumpul di restoran kegemaran mereka itu. Untuk sama-sama meluangkan masa bersama. Walaupun pada mulanya Adnin Nadia menolak, namun apabila dipaksa baru dia bersetuju. Mungkin dengan cara itu hubungan mereka akan beransur pulih. Mungkin.....

“Oh..  maaf.” Hanya itu yang mampu dia ungkapkan. Ainah Shipah terpaku. Tidak menyangka dengan kedinginan sikap Adnin Nadia. Air matanya mula bergenang. Sedih hatinya melihat rakan yang paling dia sayang antara mereka berlima hanya mengungkapkan kata maaf tanpa penjelasan lebih lanjut. Adnin Nadia yang dulu bukan seperti ini. Adnin Nadia yang dulu sangat ceria. Akan bercerita tanpa ditanya. Salah aku kah dia jadi begini?

“Err, okeh, jom order!” Nur Sakinah yang perasan akan suasana yang suram itu mula bersuara. Dia menyepak perlahan kaki Mutiara Hanani di bawah meja. Mutiara Hanani yang agak tersentak pada mulanya dengan sepakan Nur Sakinah mula mengangguk. Dia mengerti. Kerana dia dan Nur Sakinah yang merangka cadangan untuk makan bersama tengah hari itu. Dan dia perlu menceriakan suasana.

“Jom order! Kita order asam pedas kegemaran Nadia! Yayyyy..” Jerit Mutiara Hanani sambil menggoyangkan tangannya ceria. Nur Sakinah agak terkejut dengan kelakuan Mutiara Hanani yang baginya agak ‘overreacting’. Nampak obvious sangat sikapnya yang dibuat-buat.

“Ishhh kau ni..” Marah Nur Sakinah perlahan sambil tangannya mengacah mahu memukulnya dengan sudu yang sudah tersedia ada di atas meja. Fara Myra dan Ainah Shipah tergelak melihatkan Mutiara Hanani yang tersengih-sengih bagai kerang busuk.

“Kenapa? Betul lah asam pedas tu kegemaran Nadia..” Mutiara Hanani membela diri.

“Nadia mana makan pedas!” Kata Nur Sakinah separuh menjerit. Laju dia bangun sedikit dari duduknya dan memukul perlahan kepala Mutiara Hanani dengan sudu di tangan. Wajah Mutiara Hanani berkerut menahan sakit. Dia mengusap kepalanya sambil membuat muka eh-yeke?. Adnin Nadia hanya tersenyum. Mereka yang melihat senyum Adnin Nadia menjadi senang.

“Dah lah. Jom order. Kalau nak tunggu si Kinah dengan Ara ni habis, sampai esok pon kita tak lunch.” kata Fara Myra sambil mengangkat tangan memanggil pelayan. Nur Sakinah dan Mutiara Hanani hanya tersengih. 

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"Korang faham tak subjek Tort?" Soal Fara Myra. Dahinya berkerut. Saja dia mahu bertanya sambil menunggu makanan mereka sampai. Sememangnya dia agak kurang faham dengan subjek tersebut. Kadang-kadang apabila dia baca setiap satu case yang ada, agak berbelit-belit. Sekejap bersalah sekejap tak bersalah. Sepatutnya bersalah, tapi disebabkan sesuatu rule dia tak bersalah. Dia jadi pusing. Bagai mahu tercabut keluar otaknya memikirkan subjek tersebut.  

"Tort? Topic apa?" Nur Sakinah pula menyoal.

"Semua." Nur Sakinah membuat muka. Fara Myra tersengih. 

"Terangkan aku pasal Strict Liability. Aku agak samar-samar dengan topic tu." Pinta Fara Myra. 

"Malas dah aku nak terangkan kat kau. Menyampah. Suka main-main. Strict liability pon kau tak faham? Mesti kau tidur kan kat dalam kelas." Fara Myra hanya tersenyum simpul mendengarkan tekaan Nur Sakinah. Dia tidak menafikan. Bukan salah dia kalau dia tertidur. Its a nature. Dr. Sonny tu yang suka cakap banyak. Kelas habis pukul 1, pukul 1.05 baru keluar kelas. Ehe. 

"Strict liability tu, dia satu rule yang sangat strict tau. Tu je." Ujar Nur Sakinah. Dia ketawa mengekek. Mutiara Hanani juga Ainah Shipah juga tergelak. Adnin Nadia hanya mendiamkan diri. Memikirkan tentang undang-undang.

"Ish! Main-mainlah kau!"

"Meh sini la aku terangkan. Betul lah yang Kinah cakap tu. Dia rule yang sangat tegas. Walaupun kau sengaja atau tidak terhadap damage tu kau tetap bersalah, sebab memang dah terbukti damage tu datangnya dari kau. Term dia, walaupun defendan dah ambil langkah berjaga-jaga untuk mengelakkan damage atau risiko, he may still be found liable sekiranya dijumpai strict liability dalam case dia. Faham?" Mutiara Hanani cuba untuk menerangkan apa yang dia faham dan dapat di dalam kelas Dr. Sonny. Fara Myra menggelengkan kepala.

"Contohnya? Dia kan tak sengaja, dia boleh defense diri dia kan? Guna Act of God maybe?" Fara Myra menggaru kepala. Dah mula datang stress.

"Hah tengok tu. Siapa suruh cuti-cuti macam ni tanya pasal law?" Marah Nur Sakinah. Kalau boleh sebenarnya untuk seharian sahaja dia mahu lari dari subjek undang-undang. Tidak tahan dengan tekanan. 

"Macam ni, kau jangan fikir jauh sangat. Focus pada strict liability je. Act of God lain punya hal. Nanti kau balik bilik kau baca case Rylands v Fletcher dengan tenang dan teliti. Sekarang aku terang sikit je, al maklum lah aku nak bercuti tanpa law hari ni." ujar Nur Sakinah. Fara Myra mengangguk laju.

"Dalam case tu, Rylands, the defendant tu dia bina satu takungan dekat tanah dia, which contractor dia did not properly block lubang bawah, jadinya bila isi air, dia menyebabkan banjir dekat lombong plaintiff. Tanpa disengajakan. Tapi dia still liable sebab damage tu berlaku daripada takungan yang dia bina. Faham kan?" Fara Myra mengangguk faham. Dia tersenyum senang. 

"Undang-undang.." Adnin Nadia tergelak sinis. Terasa lucu dengan perkataan 'undang-undang'. Nur Sakinah, Fara Myra, Ainah Shipah dan Mutiara Hanani memandang tepat ke arah Adnin Nadia. Terkejut dengan Adnin Nadia yang tiba tiba bersuara.

"Kenapa?" Ainah Shipah menyoal. Dahinya berkerut. Sungguh dia tidak faham dengan Adnin Nadia saat ini. Kenapa jadi begini hanya  kerana peristiwa lepas?

"Untuk apa adanya undang-undang kalau manusia sendiri pon tak patuh.." ujarnya perlahan. Namun ayatnya tidak terhenti di situ.

"Undang-undang untuk apa? Bermacam undang-undang yang Malaysia ni ada. Tapi masih ada juga yang melanggarnya. Jadi untuk apa?" Suaranya agak meninggi. Namun bibirnya masih mengukirkan senyuman sinis. Dia menggeleng kepala. Tidak faham dengan kewujudan undang-undang. Belajar jurusan undang-undang sama sekali tidak mencukupi untuk seseorang itu faham erti undang-undang. Yang lain memandang Adnin Nadia penuh tanda tanya. 

"Undang-undang untuk mengawal manusia, Nadia. Mengawal sikap manusia yang kadang-kadang mengikut nafsu mereka. Dan pasti akan ada hukuman bagi mereka yang melanggarnya, kerana undang-undang telah menetapkannya begitu. Kalau tiada undang-undang di dunia ni, ia akan menjadi lebih teruk. Undang-undang juga untuk keadilan. Kenapa ni Nadia?" Mutiara Hanani mula bersuara. Jauh di sudut hati, dia gusar melihat Adnin Nadia yang secara tiba-tiba mempersoalkan undang-undang.

"Contoh! Undang-undang kata jangan rogol orang! Jangan bunuh orang! Jangan culik, rompak, menceroboh hak milik orang lain! Tapi kita tengok sekarang ni, adakah mereka mematuhi segala undang-undang yang ditetapkan tu? Rogol sana sini, bunuh orang tanpa simpati. Macam-macam yang dah berlaku. mangsa terus menderita, si penjenayah masih lagi berlegar-legar di luar sana. Jadi dari mana datangnya keadilan tu?! Even kat UIA ni pon ada yang berlaku kan?" Pekik Adnin Nadia. Berang dengan jawapan yang diberikan Mutiara Hanani. Keadilan?? Dia mencebik. Adnin Nadia tersengih sinis kemudian dia ketawa memandang satu persatu wajah bingung rakan-rakannya. 

"Jadi jangan cakap soal keadilan depan aku!" Kasar suaranya. Fara Myra agak terkejut. Dia seperti mahu menangis. Dipegang erat tangan Nur Sakinah yang berada di sebelahnya. Mereka hanya mampu terduduk diam di situ. Terpaku. Tidak mampu berkata apa-apa. Orang sekeliling mula berbisik sesama mereka. Adnin Nadia laju melangkahkan kaki keluar dari restoran tersebut. Air matanya merembes keluar dari kelopak mata. Sungguh dia tidak suka bercakap soal keadilan dan undang-undang. Hatinya sakit. Mengenangkan si dia. Keadilan apa yang telah orang itu dapat dari undang-undang? Adnin Nadia menekup wajahnya.





-TBC-

Chapter 2 - Blind Love

*FLASHBACK*



                 Soyeon tried to run as fast as she could. Her eyes looking for the room that was mentioned by a nurse in the counter. Like an insane person she run with tears flowing non-stop. She hit, she pushed, every person that were blocking her way. There was even a woman that were fall because of her. Pity woman. She was hurt on her knee. Like I care?!! Soyeon cried. Where is that damn room?! She sat flagging in a corner. She was not in her right mind right now. She was blank. Don't know how to react in the exact way when she received that call. She cried again thinking about the phone call. People that passing by just shaking their head. Not dare to persuade. Just glare. But then, there is someone that approach the girl in a corner. A nurse. Slowly she walked to the girl.

"What are you looking for miss, maybe I can help you?" That nurse asked with a soft voice. Being a nurse for 6 years has taught her well to be patient with the patients and even to the patients's family's behaviour. She squat with polite, facing the girl in front.

"13B. I'm looking for that room..." With a sobbing Soyeon answers. She looked at the nurse in front. The first person that were bold to talk to her. That nurse chuckled. She stands up. Soyeon just look at the nurse patiently.

"Do you mean that room?" Asked the nurse while pointing her finger out at the room just beside the girl. Soyeon rubbing her eyes in quick. She stand up. Looking at the room that were shown. 13B... Then she cried again. You are such a stupid person, Soyeon. Without a word Soyeon leave that nurse and run slowly to the room. But she still managed to smile back to the nurse and bow her head a little as a sign of 'thank you'. She take a deep breath. Wiping her tears. She open the door slowly. She could see there is a person lying weak on a bed. Unconscious. She was frozen. Not even budge a little.





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"Please wake up..." She cried. Holding that person hand tightly. Her heart ached. Seeing that person lying weakly with a bruise on the cheeks, a blood in a bandage on that person's head, and the most difficult part that she could't accepted is her mother's broken left hand and an amputated leg, it is just something that she couldn't believe. It is a nightmare. She had just seen a happiness in that person's eyes this morning while leaving their house. She cried again. She couldn't stop. How can this actually happened?? This is all my fault. I should just follow them took a vacation that morning. So that she will hurt too. Not just standing here feeling hurt for not being hurt.

"Soyeon-ah....." with a slow voice that person trying so hard to open her mouth. She can see a person standing in front of her. Her hand move a little. Can feel the warmness of Soyeon's hand. "Mother... I am here..." she said while bringing herself closer to her mother. She tried to hold back her tears. But her heart couldn't hide her feeling. She cried again. This time, it is louder. Her heart is aching so badly, feeling so sad seeing her mother in that condition. She patted her own chest repeatedly. Just hoping that the pain in her heart will be vanished. Fly with the wind. Follow the breeze. Don't come back again. Please....

"Please... Soyeon, don't hurt yourself... Let me the one who hurt here," it was so hard for her to utter the word. Her whole body was in pain. But she couldn't feel her own body. But it is okay as long as she can see her daughter, Soyeon. And she don't want to see her daughter hurt herself. Suddenly her mind just crossed to her other daughter. Oh my, my beloved sweety Jiyeon.. Where is she. "Jiyeo....n..." Her body started to move. She was forcing her body to move! And its really hurt actually. But she have to see her Jiyeon. She could still hear Jiyeon's screaming when that poor little girl was thrown out from the car. She closed her eyes. Oh God... Things were happened so fast.

             The tragedy on that morning was tearing her heart apart into pieces. Seeing her daughter thrown out from the car was really hurtful. She is a mother. What mother is not sad seeing her daughter in pain? Even mosquitoes are not dare to mess with her daughter. Tears dropping. She tried to move again. This time, her mind suddenly switched to her husband. She still remember seeing her husband who is sitting in the driver's seat. With blood covering his face. Unmoved. Mrs. Kim wailing. Loudly. Could not accept the fate that her husband is dead. Soyeon who was shocked with her mother's sudden wailing, quickly hug her mother, rubbing her mother's back slowly. Trying to calm her mother. She cried. Don't be like this mom... Please....

"Jiyeon is alright, she was 'sleeping' right now in the other room. Just beside your room. But please mother.. Don't move right now.. You still in pain..." Hiding the fact that Jiyeon was actually in a coma, Soyeon beg her mother to stop as her mother still trying to move.  Regarding her father, she couldn't say anything about it. She know that her mother already know about her father's death. Its just her who could not accept it. As soon as she received that phone call on that afternoon, she runs to the mortuary.

Mrs. Kim grabbed her daughter's hand and she kissed it and hold it tightly. She looked deep in her daughter's eyes. She pulled Soyeon slowly to her so that her daughter could hear what she is trying to say.

"If something happened to me, you have to take care of your sister... Protect her... Love her with your heart... Don't ever make her tears drop.. I love both of you... I love my two lovely daughters so much... Don't fight with each other.... Promise me Soyeon.. Take a good care of your sister..." With all the strength that she have, she utter that word.

               Soyeon could not hold her tears anymore. She hug her mother tightly as she would not let it go. She is wailing her heart out. "Why did you say those nonsense mom, please don't say that, I know you are strong, you have to take care both of us.. We need you!" Mrs. Kim just smiled with her eyes closed. Tears slowly dropping. "Just promise me..." she said slowly, does not have any energy. Soyeon was frozen there. The word promise is so hard to be quote right now. Once she said the promise, its mean that she is willing to lost her mother. Long she stood facing her mother.

"I promise...." her lips trembling while saying the word. "But you have to promise me as well, promise me that you're going to get well soon..'' Mrs. Kim just smile and nodded.





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She caresses that face in front of her right now. Slowly. With love. She smiled. But what the doctor said to her just now turned her smile into gloomy face. She is hurt inside. So much hurt. Her mother still in a critical condition and just got out from the I.C.U that night, and now, her younger sister have to faced a hard fate in her young age. This is just ridiculous! Everything was a joke. A harsh joke for her. She started to blame God for everything that happened to her family. God is injustice. What is He trying to plan right now?? Soyeon sighed, weakly. She looked at her younger sister. Hold her left hand tightly. She is worried. What will happened when she is awake? How will she react?

"Mom...."

"Jiyeon...?"

"Mom... I want mom..."

Soyeon shocked. Jiyeon awake! She smiled widely. As her eyes started to teary, quickly she wipe it and shout for a doctor for a few times. The doctor finally came and ran into the room and checked the girl who are lying weakly in a bed. Soyeon were asked to wait outside. With forcefully heart, Soyeon leave the room. Not long after that she heard a loud scream from the room. She was totally shocked, automatically she opened the door and saw Jiyeon were sitting on the bed while her face are on her knee. Her hands closed her ears. What's wrong? The doctor were just standing there in silent. He shook his head.

"NO!! Soyeon eonni!" Jiyeon screamed. Why is this happening to me? She is too young to face this kind of situation. She was just 18! Jiyeon cried loudly. Wailing. Soyeon who just passed the door, in a quick movement, she hug her younger sister. Try to calm her.

"Jiyeon... Shhh... I'm here... You'll be alright.. Don't worry.. Shhh.." Rubbing her younger sister's back, hug her tightly and she tried hard to hold back the tears, does not want Jiyeon to feel more hurt inside. Jiyeon finally getting calm by her sister's embrace. But there is still sobbing left. "You are going to be okay..." Soyeon persuaded again. Jiyeon just nodded weakly. Tears still dropping.





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"Leave me alone will you?! Stop bothering me!" A rough voice come out from Jiyeon's mouth. She look outside the window, even though she can't see anything there. That's what makes her feels really upset. She can't see the world anymore. She can't see her sister's face. Everything was dark in her eyes. Nothing special. Just try to close your eyes for one day and walk. It is hard isn't? Really hard. That is what Jiyeon feels right now. She can't use her eyes to see for the rest of her life. Not even that, her mother has left them. To a place that is far away. Very far. She started to cry quietly. Don't want her sister to know her crying.

                A bowl of soup scattered in the floor. That was really unexpected in Soyeon's eyes. She shook her head in shocked. This is not Jiyeon. This is not my younger sister. My younger sister will not behave this way. My Jiyeon is a soft person, who always talk nice, act cute and cheerful. Soyeon bow a little to clean the mess. "I'm sorry...." Jiyeon mouthed slowly. Soyeon look at her younger sister. She smiled, though her heart hurt by Jiyeon's action just now. Pushing her hand hardly while trying to fed her and make the soup spilled and the bowl shatter, its not a good thing to do though. But, look at her younger sister's condition right now. she tried to understand her feeling. She just lost her sight.

"No its okay Jiyeon..." She said. Then she left her younger sister alone.

"I know you hurt... I'm really sorry... Please come here sister..." Jiyeon called, as she can feel her sister are getting away from her. Soyeon sighed. She put the broken bowl on the table beside the door and she go near Jiyeon. Jiyeon take Soyeon's hand and pulled her into her arms. She hug her sister tighly. She cried. Soyeon reply the hug. Patting Jiyeon's back. This time, she will not cry. She have to act strong in front of Jiyeon, as she is the only one that Jiyeon have now. No more tears from her after this.

"Sis.. I'm really scared... Scared of this darkness..." Jiyeon sobbing. Soyeon frozen by Jiyeon's words. What should she say? Jiyeon scared of the darkness. What can she do for her?

"Don't be scared Jiyeon. You know that you still have me. I'm always here for you. You have to be strong, the you right now, is not you that I know as my younger sister. The Jiyeon that I know, are always strong, even though she face with the difficulties, she will not lose and always trying hard to cope with that. So please, don't lose hope.. I'm here to help you.. I was hurt too Jiyeon, with you being like this, our parents death... Everything happened too fast... Please do not add more pain in my heart.. I love you.. Only you that I have right now Jiyeon... So please, I'm begging you... Its been two months right now.." With a soft voice, Soyeon tried to consoles Jiyeon. Saying what she feels right now pertaining to the condition that she had after their parents died. She hope that Jiyeon will understand. The embrace broke. Jiyeon's eyes look at her sister in front. Though she can't see her sister's face, but still, she can feel her sister's worries. She feels guilty. She cupped her sister's face and she smiled. Nodded slowly.

"From now on, you have to keep this in your mind, that, outside there, there is still people that bear the pain in their life, more worst than you. There even a people that already lose their sight since they were still a baby, and never had a chance to see the world, but you know, they still have smile on their face..Why? Because they never lose hope, and believe that there must be a good thing to not to see the world.. The violation, the mischievous, and the cruel fact about this world... There must be a wisdom that this things happened in our life.. Okay?" A long explanation from Soyeon. She really hope that her younger sister would think widely this time. Out of the box, about losing her sight. Jiyeon cried. She almost forgot about the other people out there are also suffer a hardships and have to sacrifice a lot. All this while, she always think about her own self hardships. She was so selfish! She should have feels grateful to have a chance to see the world for nearly 18 years!

"Thank you sister, I will never forget what you said... I was so selfish for only think about myself, I am sorry for troubling you, hurt you inside.. I'm so sorry.."Said Jiyeon. Soyeon smiled, then she caresses Jiyeon face, and give a peck on Jiyeon's forehead.

"That's my girl..." Jiyeon just smiled.

"I'm hungry..." Jiyeon said suddenly. She chuckled while rubbing her stomach. Soyeon glare her younger sister annoyingly. "Who ask you to push my hand when I'm trying to fed you just now? No more food left, I am sorry, but you have to starve today." Mad Soyeon. "Please Soyeon sister~" Jiyeon whining, try to act cute. She blinked her eyes. "I'm not cooking." Said Soyeon. But quietly she chuckled with Jiyeon's blinking. Oh my poor Jiyeon.

"Sister~"

"I'm tired."

"Ok then, I will cook." Said Jiyeon. She try to get up from the bed. Soyeon laughed. Jiyeon glare at her angrily. Giving a sour face. This is not funny though. I am sulking right now.

"You. Don't move okay. Sit here quietly. I'm going to prepare the food." Soyeon concede. Finally. She get up and walk to the door, she take the broken bowl that she put on the table just now, and leave Jiyeon to prepare the food. All she had to do is to reheat the soup because there is still some soup left. She laughed in silent. Jiyeon on the bed smiled happily. For the first time after the incident, she could feel the calmness in her heart.



*PRESENT TIME*



"You should sleep too sister.." Said Jiyeon as her sister still patting her hips to sleep. Jiyeon's voice make Soyeon awoke from the past reveries.

"I will wait for you to sleep first. You have a school tomorrow right.." Jiyeon just do what her sister told her to. She closed her eyes, and started to sleep. Soyeon smiled. The past incident still lingering in her mind. I'm really grateful that you still smiling today Jiyeon. She then closed her eyes and sleep while hugging her sister.




-TBC-