01/06/2013
Chapter 2 - Blind Love
*FLASHBACK*
Soyeon tried to run as fast as she could. Her eyes looking for the room that was mentioned by a nurse in the counter. Like an insane person she run with tears flowing non-stop. She hit, she pushed, every person that were blocking her way. There was even a woman that were fall because of her. Pity woman. She was hurt on her knee. Like I care?!! Soyeon cried. Where is that damn room?! She sat flagging in a corner. She was not in her right mind right now. She was blank. Don't know how to react in the exact way when she received that call. She cried again thinking about the phone call. People that passing by just shaking their head. Not dare to persuade. Just glare. But then, there is someone that approach the girl in a corner. A nurse. Slowly she walked to the girl.
"What are you looking for miss, maybe I can help you?" That nurse asked with a soft voice. Being a nurse for 6 years has taught her well to be patient with the patients and even to the patients's family's behaviour. She squat with polite, facing the girl in front.
"13B. I'm looking for that room..." With a sobbing Soyeon answers. She looked at the nurse in front. The first person that were bold to talk to her. That nurse chuckled. She stands up. Soyeon just look at the nurse patiently.
"Do you mean that room?" Asked the nurse while pointing her finger out at the room just beside the girl. Soyeon rubbing her eyes in quick. She stand up. Looking at the room that were shown. 13B... Then she cried again. You are such a stupid person, Soyeon. Without a word Soyeon leave that nurse and run slowly to the room. But she still managed to smile back to the nurse and bow her head a little as a sign of 'thank you'. She take a deep breath. Wiping her tears. She open the door slowly. She could see there is a person lying weak on a bed. Unconscious. She was frozen. Not even budge a little.
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"Please wake up..." She cried. Holding that person hand tightly. Her heart ached. Seeing that person lying weakly with a bruise on the cheeks, a blood in a bandage on that person's head, and the most difficult part that she could't accepted is her mother's broken left hand and an amputated leg, it is just something that she couldn't believe. It is a nightmare. She had just seen a happiness in that person's eyes this morning while leaving their house. She cried again. She couldn't stop. How can this actually happened?? This is all my fault. I should just follow them took a vacation that morning. So that she will hurt too. Not just standing here feeling hurt for not being hurt.
"Soyeon-ah....." with a slow voice that person trying so hard to open her mouth. She can see a person standing in front of her. Her hand move a little. Can feel the warmness of Soyeon's hand. "Mother... I am here..." she said while bringing herself closer to her mother. She tried to hold back her tears. But her heart couldn't hide her feeling. She cried again. This time, it is louder. Her heart is aching so badly, feeling so sad seeing her mother in that condition. She patted her own chest repeatedly. Just hoping that the pain in her heart will be vanished. Fly with the wind. Follow the breeze. Don't come back again. Please....
"Please... Soyeon, don't hurt yourself... Let me the one who hurt here," it was so hard for her to utter the word. Her whole body was in pain. But she couldn't feel her own body. But it is okay as long as she can see her daughter, Soyeon. And she don't want to see her daughter hurt herself. Suddenly her mind just crossed to her other daughter. Oh my, my beloved sweety Jiyeon.. Where is she. "Jiyeo....n..." Her body started to move. She was forcing her body to move! And its really hurt actually. But she have to see her Jiyeon. She could still hear Jiyeon's screaming when that poor little girl was thrown out from the car. She closed her eyes. Oh God... Things were happened so fast.
The tragedy on that morning was tearing her heart apart into pieces. Seeing her daughter thrown out from the car was really hurtful. She is a mother. What mother is not sad seeing her daughter in pain? Even mosquitoes are not dare to mess with her daughter. Tears dropping. She tried to move again. This time, her mind suddenly switched to her husband. She still remember seeing her husband who is sitting in the driver's seat. With blood covering his face. Unmoved. Mrs. Kim wailing. Loudly. Could not accept the fate that her husband is dead. Soyeon who was shocked with her mother's sudden wailing, quickly hug her mother, rubbing her mother's back slowly. Trying to calm her mother. She cried. Don't be like this mom... Please....
"Jiyeon is alright, she was 'sleeping' right now in the other room. Just beside your room. But please mother.. Don't move right now.. You still in pain..." Hiding the fact that Jiyeon was actually in a coma, Soyeon beg her mother to stop as her mother still trying to move. Regarding her father, she couldn't say anything about it. She know that her mother already know about her father's death. Its just her who could not accept it. As soon as she received that phone call on that afternoon, she runs to the mortuary.
Mrs. Kim grabbed her daughter's hand and she kissed it and hold it tightly. She looked deep in her daughter's eyes. She pulled Soyeon slowly to her so that her daughter could hear what she is trying to say.
"If something happened to me, you have to take care of your sister... Protect her... Love her with your heart... Don't ever make her tears drop.. I love both of you... I love my two lovely daughters so much... Don't fight with each other.... Promise me Soyeon.. Take a good care of your sister..." With all the strength that she have, she utter that word.
Soyeon could not hold her tears anymore. She hug her mother tightly as she would not let it go. She is wailing her heart out. "Why did you say those nonsense mom, please don't say that, I know you are strong, you have to take care both of us.. We need you!" Mrs. Kim just smiled with her eyes closed. Tears slowly dropping. "Just promise me..." she said slowly, does not have any energy. Soyeon was frozen there. The word promise is so hard to be quote right now. Once she said the promise, its mean that she is willing to lost her mother. Long she stood facing her mother.
"I promise...." her lips trembling while saying the word. "But you have to promise me as well, promise me that you're going to get well soon..'' Mrs. Kim just smile and nodded.
*****
She caresses that face in front of her right now. Slowly. With love. She smiled. But what the doctor said to her just now turned her smile into gloomy face. She is hurt inside. So much hurt. Her mother still in a critical condition and just got out from the I.C.U that night, and now, her younger sister have to faced a hard fate in her young age. This is just ridiculous! Everything was a joke. A harsh joke for her. She started to blame God for everything that happened to her family. God is injustice. What is He trying to plan right now?? Soyeon sighed, weakly. She looked at her younger sister. Hold her left hand tightly. She is worried. What will happened when she is awake? How will she react?
"Mom...."
"Jiyeon...?"
"Mom... I want mom..."
Soyeon shocked. Jiyeon awake! She smiled widely. As her eyes started to teary, quickly she wipe it and shout for a doctor for a few times. The doctor finally came and ran into the room and checked the girl who are lying weakly in a bed. Soyeon were asked to wait outside. With forcefully heart, Soyeon leave the room. Not long after that she heard a loud scream from the room. She was totally shocked, automatically she opened the door and saw Jiyeon were sitting on the bed while her face are on her knee. Her hands closed her ears. What's wrong? The doctor were just standing there in silent. He shook his head.
"NO!! Soyeon eonni!" Jiyeon screamed. Why is this happening to me? She is too young to face this kind of situation. She was just 18! Jiyeon cried loudly. Wailing. Soyeon who just passed the door, in a quick movement, she hug her younger sister. Try to calm her.
"Jiyeon... Shhh... I'm here... You'll be alright.. Don't worry.. Shhh.." Rubbing her younger sister's back, hug her tightly and she tried hard to hold back the tears, does not want Jiyeon to feel more hurt inside. Jiyeon finally getting calm by her sister's embrace. But there is still sobbing left. "You are going to be okay..." Soyeon persuaded again. Jiyeon just nodded weakly. Tears still dropping.
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"Leave me alone will you?! Stop bothering me!" A rough voice come out from Jiyeon's mouth. She look outside the window, even though she can't see anything there. That's what makes her feels really upset. She can't see the world anymore. She can't see her sister's face. Everything was dark in her eyes. Nothing special. Just try to close your eyes for one day and walk. It is hard isn't? Really hard. That is what Jiyeon feels right now. She can't use her eyes to see for the rest of her life. Not even that, her mother has left them. To a place that is far away. Very far. She started to cry quietly. Don't want her sister to know her crying.
A bowl of soup scattered in the floor. That was really unexpected in Soyeon's eyes. She shook her head in shocked. This is not Jiyeon. This is not my younger sister. My younger sister will not behave this way. My Jiyeon is a soft person, who always talk nice, act cute and cheerful. Soyeon bow a little to clean the mess. "I'm sorry...." Jiyeon mouthed slowly. Soyeon look at her younger sister. She smiled, though her heart hurt by Jiyeon's action just now. Pushing her hand hardly while trying to fed her and make the soup spilled and the bowl shatter, its not a good thing to do though. But, look at her younger sister's condition right now. she tried to understand her feeling. She just lost her sight.
"No its okay Jiyeon..." She said. Then she left her younger sister alone.
"I know you hurt... I'm really sorry... Please come here sister..." Jiyeon called, as she can feel her sister are getting away from her. Soyeon sighed. She put the broken bowl on the table beside the door and she go near Jiyeon. Jiyeon take Soyeon's hand and pulled her into her arms. She hug her sister tighly. She cried. Soyeon reply the hug. Patting Jiyeon's back. This time, she will not cry. She have to act strong in front of Jiyeon, as she is the only one that Jiyeon have now. No more tears from her after this.
"Sis.. I'm really scared... Scared of this darkness..." Jiyeon sobbing. Soyeon frozen by Jiyeon's words. What should she say? Jiyeon scared of the darkness. What can she do for her?
"Don't be scared Jiyeon. You know that you still have me. I'm always here for you. You have to be strong, the you right now, is not you that I know as my younger sister. The Jiyeon that I know, are always strong, even though she face with the difficulties, she will not lose and always trying hard to cope with that. So please, don't lose hope.. I'm here to help you.. I was hurt too Jiyeon, with you being like this, our parents death... Everything happened too fast... Please do not add more pain in my heart.. I love you.. Only you that I have right now Jiyeon... So please, I'm begging you... Its been two months right now.." With a soft voice, Soyeon tried to consoles Jiyeon. Saying what she feels right now pertaining to the condition that she had after their parents died. She hope that Jiyeon will understand. The embrace broke. Jiyeon's eyes look at her sister in front. Though she can't see her sister's face, but still, she can feel her sister's worries. She feels guilty. She cupped her sister's face and she smiled. Nodded slowly.
"From now on, you have to keep this in your mind, that, outside there, there is still people that bear the pain in their life, more worst than you. There even a people that already lose their sight since they were still a baby, and never had a chance to see the world, but you know, they still have smile on their face..Why? Because they never lose hope, and believe that there must be a good thing to not to see the world.. The violation, the mischievous, and the cruel fact about this world... There must be a wisdom that this things happened in our life.. Okay?" A long explanation from Soyeon. She really hope that her younger sister would think widely this time. Out of the box, about losing her sight. Jiyeon cried. She almost forgot about the other people out there are also suffer a hardships and have to sacrifice a lot. All this while, she always think about her own self hardships. She was so selfish! She should have feels grateful to have a chance to see the world for nearly 18 years!
"Thank you sister, I will never forget what you said... I was so selfish for only think about myself, I am sorry for troubling you, hurt you inside.. I'm so sorry.."Said Jiyeon. Soyeon smiled, then she caresses Jiyeon face, and give a peck on Jiyeon's forehead.
"That's my girl..." Jiyeon just smiled.
"I'm hungry..." Jiyeon said suddenly. She chuckled while rubbing her stomach. Soyeon glare her younger sister annoyingly. "Who ask you to push my hand when I'm trying to fed you just now? No more food left, I am sorry, but you have to starve today." Mad Soyeon. "Please Soyeon sister~" Jiyeon whining, try to act cute. She blinked her eyes. "I'm not cooking." Said Soyeon. But quietly she chuckled with Jiyeon's blinking. Oh my poor Jiyeon.
"Sister~"
"I'm tired."
"Ok then, I will cook." Said Jiyeon. She try to get up from the bed. Soyeon laughed. Jiyeon glare at her angrily. Giving a sour face. This is not funny though. I am sulking right now.
"You. Don't move okay. Sit here quietly. I'm going to prepare the food." Soyeon concede. Finally. She get up and walk to the door, she take the broken bowl that she put on the table just now, and leave Jiyeon to prepare the food. All she had to do is to reheat the soup because there is still some soup left. She laughed in silent. Jiyeon on the bed smiled happily. For the first time after the incident, she could feel the calmness in her heart.
*PRESENT TIME*
"You should sleep too sister.." Said Jiyeon as her sister still patting her hips to sleep. Jiyeon's voice make Soyeon awoke from the past reveries.
"I will wait for you to sleep first. You have a school tomorrow right.." Jiyeon just do what her sister told her to. She closed her eyes, and started to sleep. Soyeon smiled. The past incident still lingering in her mind. I'm really grateful that you still smiling today Jiyeon. She then closed her eyes and sleep while hugging her sister.
-TBC-
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